spelt that way

i`ll spell you what i need.
sense of 'ass-yee-see-you-ahr-ai-tee-why'.

maybe with that, i might think a little lesser.
not that you dont give, just that i dont feel.

i see no emotions.
i think cos i dont ask.
i dont ask cos i`m afraid i cant accept the answers.
but it doesnt mean i dont care..
somehow the tiny little things do matter alot.

it`s not about seeing everyday.

but just an affirmation to tell me,

"i`m still here for you & i`m not going anywhere."

i`ll spell you what i hate.
'ahr-yee-ass-pee-oh-and-as-ai-bee-ai-el-ai-tee-why'

something i`m so sure i cant take up.
not looking down on myself.
i just know myself too well. (i guess)

mood swings.

stupid thoughts.

i think the monthly thing is coming.

HUR.