ttm

it`s been a cold day.
the wind blew so hard on me, causing even my bones to ache.

but without the rain,
i would have just dried up.

the biggest joke of the day was
i stupidly proved to myself how much i suck at directions.

i wanted to proudly say out loud.
" my house is just an hour or two`s walk away from cck ! "
but i failed terribly.

followed the MRT track until the train got into a tunnel.
then i decided to turn left into a route that leads to i-dont-know-where.
a sight of the main road gave me home in the very ulu street.
then i began to see LRT tracks while approaching the main road.
decided to turn left again & eventually realised i`m back at cck.

HUR.
even an idiot knows turning the same direction leads you into a circle.
meaning, you get back to where you started off.

so after an hour of watering myself in rain.
i got nowhere.

i think i`m really sick.
not as in physically, but mentally.

i`ve never felt SO helpless before.

grabbing my phone so hard, praying for replies, from anyone.

you mean alot to me, really..

the things i did today after 5pm were totally brainless.
maybe a word from you will save all the troubles.
well, at least all the bad imaginations didnt happen.
glad enough.

my mind has a label:
TTM