• gla: yes, finally! yea loh ding dong cos it`s registered mail. haha`
  
• jul: haha soon soon will be your turn. heh. oh yah loh. just a little crack. luckily the guy did pay. though not all. not too bad lah. at least i learnt a lesson. heh.
• rin: super sad lo. stupid thing. it`s my pretty 111 loh! ): no problems. we shall see when. hehe. and, i want my pay!!!
  
• fion: haha! fine... i NEVER said your hand was short anyways. =x
• keaiigal: yea loh.. cos they changed the whole thing. ):
• jun: yup, true..
• jo: yea. i think alright only loh. and i was forced to go watch! HAHA`
  

steamboat dinner at zongwei`s house last night.
there was this wasp flying around, leaving me trapped in his room.

after so long, i thought i can face that question so openly & bravely.
apparently, i was wrong cos i still feel affected.
i don`t know what`s bothering me and it really sucks.

jumper at west mall with the gang after that.
i should say i got forced to go. haha.

anyways, i think it was alright only.
just some parts that made me laugh a little.
it`s too impossible lah.
totally like a fantasy. hahah`



shit man.
i`m one of the unlucky ones who haven`t got january`s pay.
most of them got both already,
while i only got my pathetic february`s $22.58 cheque.
i want my pay! ):



anyways.
the poor guy returned me $170.
dardy said give him discount off the service charge & stuff.
cos he is just a worker plus he seemed so sincere.
so yea, the $30 excess,
i shall treat it as i`m paying for the complimentary car wash.



seriously,
we shouldn`t drive out unnecessarily.
spent close to a hundred bucks just going out one day. hahaha`



oh well.
busy week up ahead.
time seems to fly.
it`s march soon!

• jun & fion: haha, if you want i can send you! (:
• jul: can find leh! still have.. but hor, i think got some problem.. can`t seem to play it. ): and yes lah. we are so old already....
  

accompanied granny to the polyclinic for her appointment this morning.
luckily 4th aunt came over too.
saved us the trouble of having to flag the cab to and fro..

pretty empty but still quite some wait.



back home and got this sudden urge to watch this CD.

given to everyone of us when we graduated years ago.



i think our biggest regret was that
we didn`t send any photos/videos to the school..
thus there wasn`t any folders or tributes from my class. ):



seriously, it brings back alot of memories to view that CD again.
especially mrs mano`s tribute to us.

here`s the part dedicated for us..

" mirror mirror on the wall, tell me which class i love more? and you know what happened? the mirror broke into 2 groups. 1 group 3 pieces, and the other group 6 pieces. "

so sweet right? (:
anyways, let`s assume she loves us more because she said 3 pieces first! LOL

missed those days when she nagged at us
& called our names in her high-pitched voice.
all those times we bugged her just wanting to hear that she loves us more than 4e6.
those moments we behaved like small kids,
trying all means to snatch & steal the sweet treats from her bag.



i wonder if any of my ex-classmates from 4e3 still read my blog,
and if any of them smiled & cry the way i did when i watched this video..
oh my, i really really miss secondary school days. ):



today is yuan xiao.
and tradition is, we will lao yu sheng!



this year`s plate is damn big.
i helped to "decorate"..

but the peanuts kinda covered all my colours. ):



in any case...

lou ah, huat ah! (:



drove god-grandma home after that.
after days of not driving, my driving skills became so so bad.
and dardy almost didn`t allow me to take the car tmr. ):
oh well....

all the best to everyone having their last paper tmr!
last lap to go, gogogo! (:

• keaiigal: hmm.. toast, mochi and mango ice i think. cant rmb the exact name. haha` that was my 2nd visit only anw! (:
• wendy: left on your tagboard! (:
• jun: hmm, only a few cases of that. most people will rmb to pay one. haha`

personally,
i think mediacorp dramas are quite well done.
at least, it occupied me for half a day.



and this one, is worth catching.

each episode tells a different story.
and i think they are good. (:



anyways.
was digging through the cupboards for CDs..

and i found alot alot of things!



two CDs with all my secondary school memories.
oh well, probably only sec1 & 2 ones.

the first batch of band music i kept..



and the olden days..

when everyone is using a cornet,
and i`m the only trumpeter...



band dinner 2oo1.

hahaha!
if mel and ting ever see this, please don`t kill me. (:



and i realised how much i love using microsoft to keep track of & do my things.
diaries, birthday cards, decorate letters, and even my results.

and btw, my history has NEVER improved to E8 i think..



specially for my darlings..

rmb all these? HEH.



sorry sasa, but you weren`t in the picture as yet.

so young back then...



i even found childish letters written to ting.
contents being how jealous i was of jul,
and how i wanted to quit the group. LOL`



i also found a folder of ancient games which i don`t think i can find now.

have you ever played any of them?



talking about games..
i realised how mad i was over neopets last time.

an edited picture of my favourite pet.

that`s not all!
i think the most retro one was..
all my IRC scripts and chat logs!
rmb all the times when everyone got so hooked to IRC,
wanting to be OPS and stuff like that.
makes me wanna laugh at myself only.

baby photos?

can you guess which one is me?
hint: the cutest one! LOL`



last but not least,
another ancient photo!

the kitchen in the background didn`t change much....



but, we did!

oh, how fun looking at old stuffs.
heh.



my head has been hurting since i woke up.
guess i got too stressed learning econs with sisty last night.
i had to read again so that i can explain to & teach her.
and seriously, i feel more disappointed in myself than i am in her.
i hope she can pass her quiz tonight.
(:

• keaiigal: hmm. i bought it a few months ago from http://flirtydolly.livejournal.com/. did i give you this site before? anyways i think it is more of a top than a dress cos the in front will open up one. heh. (:

was talking to couz-in-law yesterday.
he was giving me some directions and advices.
somehow, he kinda inspired me to become a pilot just like him!
but, i went to read up on the cadet pilot training he told me about and...
seriously, i can`t imagine myself going through BMT & those tough trainings.
heh.

anyways.
if you aren`t short-sighted,
and especially if you`re a guy, PES A/B,
no harm going to try for it cos you might just get in for all you know!

minus the tough trainings of course,
you get paid to have fun & there`re really good prospects..
what`s more, you get full scholarship to study for your degree.

check it out here & here ! (:

alrights,
i was kinda attracted to how good he made the whole thing sound.
but nah, i know my own limits.

at least for now, i`ve settled on a decision - study first, work later.
gonna still go for the DBS interview since i`ve already given my word,
but don`t think i`ll be taking up the job even if they offer me a place.
afterall, it still depends if the universities will take me in. (:



after feeling damn pissed rotting at home for too long,
i went kbox with sisty last night.




we sang from 9pm till around 2am.
it was freaking expensive and so not worth it..
i only paid $20 off that total bill but my heart still ached for sisty`s money.





i think i can sing like at least 2 more times with that same price per head.
but luckily i drove there so we saved on the cab fare.
at least that was the excuse we came up with to make ourselves feel better.



and i realised something.
sisty is kinda good with her directions!
she was leading me all the way to clementi & back home.
i think she should be the one having the license, instead of me..



went TG early this morning.
brought my couz-in-law and nephew to qiu dao.
the management for today was kinda screwed.
but well, i`m not in the position to comment anyways..



visited their house after that.
after so many years, this is like my first time there.
having 3 families living in those 3-storeys private housing is a great idea.
how i wish i can afford to do that with my family too, in the future. LOL



my nephew is now much friendlier than usual,
and my niece is still as sweet as ever..

they play together more like siblings than cousins..
you should hear the sweet voice when she calls out kor kor..
uber cute.
ps: i wish sisty can give birth to a kid real soon! (x

and yay!
we are finally meeting up tmr!!
erm erm erm erm erm..
we are, right? =\

♫ there are moments when i don`t know if it`s real,
or if anybody feels the way i feel..
i need inspiration, not just another negotiation.. ♫

• jun: checked. no problem eh.
• gladys: oh your pm was for me? LOL` famous happy end. nice.
• keaiigal: yeaa you`re right! it was very prominent right. (: oh you mean the shops in transit? cos it`s up for operation already so no choice.. haha`
  
• rin: wah liew. where got so worthless.. at least also should be $7.30? hahah
• jul: HAHA *stares back* you sure? hmm. i`m free after 4th!! but sasa only free after 7th i think. her parents going overseas.. we can do illegal stuff. LOL!
• jo: haha then tell him that! *grins* ehh, when when when... i also dont know. maybe 6 months later. heh~

this thing almost scared the wits out of me.

for a moment, i thought my report was gone!
all my hard work of 13 hours yesterday.....

but phew, it`s all over..
and i`m done...

guess what now?
it`s holidays!!
yes zz, now you can say i`m hao lian.. (:

drove my family out for breakfast.
as usual, loads of scoldings.
but it`s okay.
i shall persevere, and i shall improve.
i`ve got heaps of time anyway. heh.



and i saw an interesting thing on my leg.
3 red dots lined up like an orion..

no wonder i don`t see them in the skies these nights anymore.
hur hur.



no more jobs hunting for now.
gonna wait for my interview with DBS,
and probably apply for uni at the same time.

where to go? i shall decide at a later date..
what`s important now is to enjoy CNY! (:



there`re good reviews on sweeney todd!
a bloody musical.
i wanna watch i wanna watch i wanna watch!

johnny depp is so hot.
heh. (:



hmm.
okay, actually i lied.
i`m still not quite done with the report yet.
gotta get it finalized & printed,
and it will be TV time!
grins*

gogogo!
(:

♫ there`s really nothing left to say..
but every now and then you cross my mind,
and i try not to think about where you are tonight.. ♫

• jun: not banqi? that`s weird. where else can you see me? lol` yup i guess yinmei should know you. got chance then ask her. hahah (:
• zz: dont be jealous. =p

oh my..
because of some stupid mistakes i made on the windows live on my phone,
my live messenger`s contact list is cleared.

probably time to clean up some untouched contacts too.
trying to add the few contacts i can rmb, one by one..
but it`s okay lah..
for those who were on my list,
you can still see me even if i don`t see you anyway.
just leave me a message if you want me to see you. (:



anyways.
met up with weng fai at vivo.
seriously, couldn`t find most of the shops i want.
and i don`t expect myself doing CNY shopping there too.
heh.



had a drink before the movie.




and we caught cloverfield.

read very bad reviews on it,
but there were people (like sisty) who told me it`s nice!
so carried on & watched it.



honestly, i wouldn`t recommend it at all.
we felt so nauseous throughout the show.
and i don`t really get which part of it is NICE!
should have just caught rambo 4 instead.



mommy gave in to my cravings.
i finished almost half of the new year goodies already.

she said she`ll get another jug tmr.
but she didn`t allow me to touch those cookies that she made. ):

and a lesson learnt from today..

never tie buns to movies.
couldn`t find a good posture to sit in.
and my shoulders are aching. LOL

3 more days!
but shits, my report is not even half done. ):



meeting LO tmr.
we get to report half an hour later..
i wish she can give us some directions to write that dumbass report.
hope i can get my fat ass up from that comfy bed.



one last thing..
i`m pissed because there`re two things that are supposed to be in my letterbox aren`t in the letterbox!

1. december`s pay
2. driving license
   

• jul: hehe, maybe only applies to my family lah. i will wish you again when it comes! (:
• jun: haha alrights. that is kinda spooky too! i suppose you only see me during ban qis right? but, you can stay anonymous for as long as you want.. lol`
  

12th batch MFB graduates

MFB graduation class early in the morning.
which explains why the alarm clock has to ring that early,
despite being on afternoon shift.

a little wait probably caused some hidden conflicts.
i know everyone`s got their shortcomings..
probably if we`re able to communicate these openly,
or if we, as friends, can accept other`s shortcomings,
everything will be more beautiful..

i admit i wasn`t happy because i live in my own set of principles..
but i think it was explainable & i don`t see any wrong in being so.
it kinda subsided after some whinings & it`s all gone, really..
sorry jo if we made you feel uncomfortable.
i can put myself in your shoes but afterall, it`s just a girl thing to whine.. (:

and tsktsktsk..
i was offered money for my belated birthday present.
though i was kinda forced to accept it,
thanks alot, darlings..
for giving me additional $45 to spend.
saves me the trip to the ATM machines for at least a week i hope.. (:



rushed down to work after the scrumptious lunch at TG.
i fell asleep on an alien bus to the airport.
but luckily, my body has an automatic alarm clock,
which made me open my eyes as soon as the bus reached T3. (:



work was pretty boring, as usual..
until DTM timothy called & get us to learn through observation on grounds.
he came out with alot of feedbacks and comments,
and i realised things that i never would have..



last 4 working days.
it`s a countdown & i`m seeing freedom! (:

how i wish i could break into your dreams,
just like how you break into mine..

• jo: heh (:
• rin: sorry you didn`t get to see me! hope by monday you don`t have to pluck my lashes. *fingers crossed* no lah, my boy don`t like to see planes leh. he will feel inferior. LOL
• jun: haha indeed i don`t know your name. i can`t even figure out whom i know got "jun" in the name. got chance then you let me know bah. (:

headache.
probably am too stressed already.
another driving lesson with instructor yee.
i think he`s going to collect lesson fee from me soon. LOL
learnt parking at the multi-storey carpark at grandma`s..
was only okay when he moved a dustbin to act as guideline.



this is spooky.
sitting in front of the computer now,
i am actually feeling myself rolling backwards,
as if i am in the car & i forgot the handbrake.



oh man, i`m so tired.
probably dardy is right.
females should never learn to drive. HAHA
should just have sisty`s mentality - to wait for people to drive me around.
!@%^%#*@^$(#



by the way,
regarding the song on top..
i finished all the 13 episodes of the cranky show.
but nah, i still don`t like that two band groups starred in that show okays.



and and and..
the stupid stye is not gone yet.
i need shades! ):



long day tmr.
shall have an early night. (:

• rin: haha yes, very beautiful. (:
• jun: lol sounds spooky. it means i should know you? nah, it`s okay. my blog is still opened to public until i decide to lock it..
• jul: dont worry so much.. i also keep making mistakes before i took the test. and i regret taking mine too. but no choice, we can continue as long as we work hard! hehe jiayou! =D

one of my best game so far.

ok lah, my phone doesn`t have much entertainment you see..



sigh.

i`ve got stye. ):
which is what made me stayed home today.

Styes are generally caused by a Staphylococcus aureus bacteria infection and are particularly common in infants, though people of any age may experience them. They can be triggered by stress or poor nutrition. Also, using the same razor to shave hair near the eyes with same razor that is used to shave a mustache on a regular basis can also spread staphylococcus bacteria and eventually lead to styes or other eye infections.

i think mine was triggered by stress.
haha or maybe the lenses..
in any case, it is irritating..



anyways.
it`s been very long since i last talked to stars.
probably too long since i even take the effort to gaze at them.

but from this small little opening to the sky..
i counted at least 12 super bright ones last night.
and they accompanied me to sleep. (:



been quite long since i took my boy out.
and poor boy has been under the sun for 2 days already.

a little slanted; i parked it 2 nights ago. heh.
well, i think dardy will sure pull me out for a drive tonight though.



lastly,
brown sugar macchiato is a very cranky show.
but it is my source of entertainment for today,
since i`m stucked at home on a beautiful off day.

• rin: yes babe, i`m looking forward!! =D
• jul: LOL yah, you ride your bike can already. dont find me for rides. =p oh yah hor. exams.. sigh, everyone having exams! it`s okay, exams more impt. we can meet after that!
• jun: haha i don`t know the way to TH either. anyways, who is this ah? do i know you? =p
  
• jo: heh, typical me. let me rant on & i`ll be alright already. thanks darling!
  

i`m being such a kid.
i like to start guessing and assuming when i can`t get what i want.
however, i find nothing wrong with doing that.
because i get to think that i have answers to what i never would have.
and sometimes, i do think i`m right.
or at least, i wished i am.



i guess being indecisive is part of me, a part that cannot be changed.
a part that was imprinted in characteristics of yeetsehwee.
just like being a crybaby is what helps me live better.
we don`t deserve things because nothing should be taken for granted..
we have to work hard to get them.
maybe i hadn`t been working hard, or maybe i worked too hard it backfired..



when thoughts run wild,
or when life gets stressful..
there are always people who will make things better.
but of course, there will always be people who`s going to make it worse.
i want to be the former, but you will always be the latter.



i don`t know why i am still pinning hopes,
on something that seems so impossible.
i`m sorry but i`m like that.
you won`t have to say, i believe that there`s a way that will lead me out of.....

reminiscence;
it acts like a filter that shows only beautiful memories.
it makes you wanna turn back but with just one click,
the ugly parts can reappear again and it makes you want to press delete.

and when i just wanted to be decisive & say out loud,
i`ve decided not to further my studies...
everyone else is telling me to do otherwise..
the heart & the mind don`t tally.



oh life -
tmr shall be beautiful..

was spree-ing through LJ.
then something somewhere somewhat caught my attention.
then this thought suddenly just occurred to me.

why does it seems like i get death penalty for lying just once?

that`s super unfair, or simply, just an excuse..
because you know what?

it`s not like you`ve never lied..

• raisa: i miss you too! we haven`t had our JANUARY MEET-UP!! ): i`m free on 25th & 29th.... how bout you girls? ):
• jul: hor hor.. i know your dirty secret!! =p eh when your TP ah? and, when are we meeting!! ): i`ll give you a ride when my dad gives me green light. and and and.. i still dont know the roads. faster pass le i let you drive. hehe`
• jun: hahaha i dont know where is AYE. =x
• jo: cannot lah.. my couz will scold me if you pinch her. i lend you pinch her photo. =p

waffle day @ gelare

our first, and prolly the last time, eating at T3`s gelare.
as usual, tuesday spells waffle day. (:

the little red lamp.

i knock my head against the glass while trying to see the wire..
it was damn loud & i think a bruise is coming out soon..



an interesting view for an hour.

the unloading & loading of baggages.



my morning shift khakis.

few more days, and i`m going to miss them to bits. ):



if only i can work morning shifts the next two days...
gonna wait a few more days till my next driving lesson.
i almost bang into the van beside me while parking last night.
hur hur.

the thought of my future is haunting me yet again.
i was thinking maybe i should take a month break,
until 14 march when results are out....
or should i start working straight away after 1st feb?
i`m so indecisive. ):

♫ 一直向前走, 走不完距離,
一直向後退不出回憶..
很高興有心事, 幫我困住自己. ♫

• gladys: hahaha okay loh. it shall be my pretty GAY boy then. lols`
• rin: yes yes, my dear usemore friend..
• shermian: haha yups, couz is clever too. (:
• jo: i bring him out one day okay. hahah`

OMG HELP!! i`m burning..
just used the marine france reborn chilli slimming wrap i bought online.
and it`s really hot please..
now i can`t sit still and i feel like soaking myself in ice..

oh well.
have been trying to sleep early these few days.
working at T3 can be uber tiring.
because you have to keep WALKING around..


the empty skytrain early morning.



anyways.
was super motivated to work today.
and the reason is - the article i read yesterday..

teehee.



and when you see barricades..

you know why. (:

actually the crowd was rather disappointing.
compared to kim jeong soon one.
i think it wasn`t even half crowded.
somemore the flight number was published on the newspaper.
i actually can`t figure out why..
because, it`s JAY CHOU you know..

anyways.
camped at a corner during our break time.
and yea, i had a failed snap of him.

maybe a good one if the policeman didn`t block me. -.-"



but here`s a very good video by sokling.

i realised most artistes don`t look good after their flight.
but who cares?
he might be the last artiste i`m seeing before IAP ends. (:



and one last thing.
our lenses arrived already!
i managed to open the letterbox before dardy..
so saved a round of explanation because i seem to always spree online.
yesterday`s parcel for the slimming wrap already almost killed me.

mine and sisty`s, both gray..



anyways.
talking about my boy again..
actually, he isn`t really MINE lah.
sometimes he is dardy`s girl.
but since dardy already has got 4 girls (mommy, sisty, me & his bike),
i think my boy is still a better name. (x



i kinda wished he was in this colour....

but nopes, he isn`t..



doesn`t matter though..
i`ll get to see him after work tomorrow.
sunday shall be a tough driving lesson from dardy i suppose..
because, my boy is a manual car. FAINTS*



and, i`m awaiting my long long break..
off to sleep soon.
good night!

• an: haha good luck to you! it`ll be your turn soon in the most 6 months` time. (:
• jo: sometimes my mom will too. heheh`
• jun: (:

afternoon shifts have never been so tiring.
haven`t had time to even talk to my parents these few days.
by the time i reached home, they`re already asleep..
like last night, left the airport at like 11pm so reached at ard 12.15am.
stood for the whole day before that and i can feel my legs breaking.
i`m glad today is my off day..

and have you saw the latest gadget coming to town?

the duper slim MacBook Air.

it is so pretty..
i don`t know about the functions, but at least it LOOKS pretty..



and so is my boy. (:
haven`t got pictures of my pretty boy.
shall go take some pictures when he comes later or anytime soon.
teehee.



and yes,
i`ve got a little present from dardy.
although i haven`t got chance to talk to him yet..
saw this on the table & i supposed it is for me..

so now, all i have to do is wait for my boy to arrive!

some motivation & ideas for final report please?
pouts*

♫ 每年这个季节特别有感觉,
我好想你想再见你一面.. ♫

• raisa: yes it sure lasts! and it`s going to be a-month old soon. hee (:
• rin: no lah. i mean fit PERFECTLY well. not saying you nah. usemore friend isn`t that mean & evil & bad & whatever not-nice.. hahah`
  

" go find a boyfriend with car.... "
that was mommy`s suggestion to me while
dardy was contemplating whether to buy a car..

it made me LOL a little.
but after much thoughts,
i don`t really know if i want dardy to get a car actually.
of cos it`ll be great cos i can drive it out..
but then again, it`ll mean adding on to his monthly expenses..

if he`s really going to get one..
i`ll suggest that he buy an OPC to save costs.
cos i can buy my own $20 day license if i wanna drive during restricted hours.


and if he`s really going to get one..
i`ll want to support myself.
like paying my own bills, not getting any daily allowances or money for anything...
and it`ll mean less movies, less kbox and lesser good food.


then if he`s really going to get one..
i`ll start having second thoughts to furthering my studies.
cos i feel really guilty to keep spending his money..
maybe i should just get to the society and start earning money too?

i feel like i`m at the crossroad again.
although to buy or not is dardy`s decision,
i was the cause of it because he is buying it for my sake.
hence, i`m in a dilemma too.. ):

well, apart from my thoughtful dardy..
i`ve got a mommy who spoils me like a kid.



i was trying to put safety pins to my vest.
and she just took over and sew it for me. (:

now i can fit perfectly well..



and after a few failed attempts to get me packing my messy cupboard..
she decided to do it for me herself.

now i don`t have the heart to mess it up anymore yet..



and at work....



what does 9pm mean to you?
it meant golden path to me!
and the tv inside the gatehold room is showing channel 8..

but it is so near yet so far... ):



at least on a happier note..
it`s just 2 more hours to end of shift.

and i`m counting down to the last 12 working days!



tomorrow is NP`s open house.
which is also my off day!
but i wonder if i should go waste my time there, or at home..

♫ why did i let myself believe, miracles could happen?
cause now i have to pretend that i don`t really care.. ♫