not good enough

i`ve never believed starhub is bad till i experienced it myself.
call ins & call outs failed the past 2 nights.
and i was told there`s congestion for prepaid card users.
wth rite.. -.-"

and tsehwee has a very bad learning style,
that is so much in need for a change.

give her facts & information,
and she can just near-perfectly memorise them for you.
maybe for a short period?
in conclusion, she knows nothing about what she has learnt.

the same applies for managing people.
she might just memorise things she knows about you.
and most probably, things she knows through a 3rd party.
bcos almost 90% of what she knows dont come from her own observations & understandings.

in conclusion again, she knows nothing about your
thinking & feelings,
likes & dislikes,
wants & needs,
strengths & weaknesses,
and the list goes on and on....
she most probably doesnt even know herself.

pathetic?
that`s why she can never be a good friend.
never the somebody you can turn to when you cry.
she takes and never gives...

i`ve always taken things for granted.
all my besties & darlings around me.
they are always there for me but why cant i be there for them?

i wished i had super powers.
):

why cant we see through people`s head like a crystal clear glass?
and then we can read their minds like a storybook.

will life be easier that way?

and i`ve been super unlucky recently.
my lucky star seemed to have left me.
guess i havent been paying enough attention to it`s whereabouts.

C H A N G E

how do we do it?

everything`s so wrong.

all screwed up. SIGHS`